害怕〉心痛〉失败〉伤心〉黑暗

这是我的第一封用华语写的心声，同时也有可能使我的最后一封。
在我写这封心声之前，我有想过有可能会让全部人都知道我的事。
韦康，他可以说是一个和我很要好的朋友，甚至有时还会无所不谈。他时常说我很大胆，但有谁知道我为什么会那么大胆？当他说我很大胆的时候，我心里会想大胆有用吗？

告诉你们一个故事：
很久以前，有一个书生在学习期间不小心被“爱”这个话题深深地吸引了。虽然他知道不把心思放在学习上是没有出头的一天，也就是说不可高中状元。人，就是时常被自己的好奇心给制服乐，所以他决定向他喜欢的女生告白。他以一封很婉转的信向她表白，那个女生很自然得明白他的心意。虽然当时没有以一个明确的答案回答书生，但书生也知道这些事是不可勉强的所以就以等待的方式来等他想知道的答案。在等待的期间，他们从不认识到成为朋友，再从朋友变成互相关心的朋友。在这样的发展中让书生觉得他是有希望的。
其实，在书生的心里是一直存在着一份恐惧，因为他知道自己的条件不比那些有钱公子来的好。
在他心里可以说是有一个结把他帮得紧紧地让他无法喘气。
到了一天，书生就提起勇气向心仪的那位女生问道：“我们的距离好像越来越远噢。”
那位女生答：“我们的距离有近过吗？”
这时，书生就以猜的方式判断那位女生是从来没有喜欢过他。
知道他一直追求的答案后，他的信又轻松又伤心。
轻松是因为他终于可以得到他想要的答案了。
伤心是因为自己没有具备那位女生会心动的条件。
不轻易掉眼泪的他，却在这时眼眶开始挤满了泪水。
不过，在眼泪还未成形时他忍住了。
忍住眼泪的原因没有人知道，也许他还坚持，也也许他绝望到不知为什么要流眼泪所以就忍住了。
在科举中，他是名落孙山的。这更让他无法接受他是两头不到岸的失败者。
这是你猜他会有什么行动吧，也把你想的这个行动作为你的各人结局吧。


这个故事背后的意义，我个人也不知道因为当局者迷。

人往往不希望与失败或错误做朋友，因为他们都是会让你们受耻辱的，但没有他们你会反省/改过吗?

有什么感想就写在我的 chatbox 吧~
我会再写部落格吗?

The person who wait for u AND The person that u wait~

The person who wait for u:
mean that got 1 person tat always beside u n wait for ur answer...
The person that u wait:
mean tat got 1 person that worth for u to wait...

Now let me tell u the feeling for these 2 sentences...
between these 2 sentences are belong to different meaning...

1st for those who are waiting someone to give u an answer:
I noe the waitting feels are not gd... but if u wan to do tat, that mean the thing or person is worth to let u wait...
Hv u understand the person who wait by u de feeling?
That person who you wait oso hv his/her/it own problem to solve so that u hv to let he/she/it to solve the problem den u jz can get ur answer...

Until now i think no so many ppl understand wat i say gua...
For me, actually waitting is a gd thing for me. Y?
She/He/It let u wait mean u got the chance to get her/he/it...
But i always get a bad ending at the last minute...
How come my faith will so sad,bad luck and meaningless... Tis i really dun noe~
Maybe i am the best replacer gua...
Or maybe my Ms.Right hvent come~

The most important thing is dun forget or ignore (the person tat u wait)'s feeling...

My exam 1st time get 40++ average mark, wat to do? i hv to refresh myself hehehe...
RBM dun give any pressure to ur lover,that person tat u very sayang, and the person tat u feel is worth for u to wait~

After saw tis post in my fren blog...

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

These few words really can tell u all wat my feeling now~ Tis is full copy from my fren blog...
Hope u all noe my feeling as well...

The day before last subject

Haiz... tmr is last subject for me... tmr de subject is english... so today i think i wont do a revision for it... tmr i tot wanna to do something but kena rejected so i think i hv to go wth my fren (go gaigai)... But today 9.30++ got someone tell me tat tmr ada meeting so tat i wan to go meeting den give up to gaigai somemore if go gaigai oso meaningless for me... Tmr is last subject lu~ can go play adi... so wat to do?
I wont so easy give up de !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today very stress oh~

Actually, tis post i dun noe wan to write wat de... today very sad lar bcoz my computer result cant get the mark i wan... computer result is 61 only... wat a stupid mark i get... my aim for tis subject is 80 mark ar... i sad is bcoz tis computer exam is test how to do account by computer but i failed it... U all noe tat my ambition is to be a accountant but... NVM i will do it better next time~
Today i ada driving lesson hehe... orginally today i got other thing do de but rejected so that hv to go driving test... haha hope tat today i can drive well until no nid take test oso can pass get P !!! haha(i still dreaming)
Guys !!!! u all having exam hor? (Only for tsun jin student,other no sch de plz dun see wakakak)
try ur best ba~ RMB ur health is more important than ur exam !!!!
I will try my best to do tat thing i wan to do... exam...study...games...something else?...